I Love to Hate It: The Joys of a Hate Read

 

And #1 on the Hate Read list goes to......

I'm not a glutton for punishment, I swear.  I take great pleasure from reading - it's my literal escape (see what I did there?) so it doesn't make much sense that I'd devote time to reading things I don't enjoy.  I'm an adult now, so I'm not obligated to read anything I don't want.  I DNF books on Kindle Unlimited with abandon; if I have the misfortune to purchase a physical book that just isn't doing it for me, I usually don't bother to return, but I will donate.  I am never, ever, EVER going to read the Great Gatsby again.  Ever.

ACOMAF Re-Read - Complete Notes, Quotes, and Criticisms

Don’t worry, Tam Tam. I’m on your side. 

Below is the full export of all of my highlights and notes, collected during my recent critical re-read of ACOMAF.  I tried my hardest to focus only on passages that showcased either the blatant revisionary approach SJM took to Tamlin, the blatant hypocrisy exhibited by both Feyre and Rhys, or if you're really lucky, both.

As you can see the infodump is massive, which leads whether or not SJM even tried to be careful about how she was even contradicting her own work.  My gut tells me that, much like Feyre, she's often enamored of her own cleverness, and thinks she was probably being like super-smart about dismantling every single thing Rhys did wrong in book one (to make it be right) and every good thing Tamlin ever did (to make it be wrong).  I can literally see the bullet-point list in my imagination, and her ticking off items one by one, cackling in glee. 

What she, and the less mentally independent readers out there, see as cleverness, I just see as laziness, because for all of her very thorough efforts to showcase Rhys as the good guy all along, she appears to have completely ignored the fact that she's created the two most blatantly oblivious characters in the history of YA/NA Fantasy Romance, neither of which have any awareness of the fact that they are actually not the heroes they think they are, but are instead sanctimonious, condescending Mary-Sues.  I’ve found that taking that perspective makes re-reads much more bearable, because I’m sure Feyre and Rhys will never get their comeuppance, and certainly not in the way Tamlin has. 

Excuses, Excuses (ACOMAF Re-read)

A victim of his creator

 

Chapter 55 is probably the most well-known chapter in the entire series.  I'm not going to go in to why, but while I will say that what I found kinda hot 3 years ago, I can barely stomach listening to/reading now.

So while chapter 55 is infamous, I think Chapter 54 might actually be the most important one in the entire series, certainly the first two books.  Tamlin's retcon had been slowly building since page one of ACOMAF, it's Chapter 54 that really buries him.

It's basically a pages long explanation of why Rhys isn't anything like what we knew of him in book one, setting up the smut to come in the next chapter (because how could our heroine ever fuck a guys that isn't perfect).

Long story short, he knew of Feyre before she ever came to Prythian, he loved her from the first, and every last thing Rhys ever did was done with the express purpose of being near her, or being with her, or whatever.  I forget.  My brain got addled from all the eye-rolling.

It's obviously supposed to be some grand, romantic thing (it's destiny! it's fate!), but it also reveals what a lot of the fandom already suspects about him - that he's a manipulative, self-centered....prick.

SJM methodically tries to tie up every loose end imaginable with regard to Rhys's true character, but I am still left with so many unanswered questions.

A Court of Hypocrites and Assholes (ACOMAF Re-Read, Chapters 25-31)

 

He looks so angry because he's smelling Feyre's bullshit.  She might think it doesn't stink, but it does.

I was not going to post another re-cap so soon, but the some of the shit said in these past few had me so boiling mad that I needed to unload or I'd wind up destroying my study like big, bad Tamlin.

To be honest, I'm not sure how the hell this went down so smoothly the first time I read it - maybe I just didn't care, and maybe I was distracted by Rhys and his pseudo-flirtatious creepiness (only acceptable from guys that are hot, fyi).  

I'm rarely extra critical of books on a first pass, especially ones that rely heavily on world building and mythology, mostly because I'm too busy trying to follow the story and the details.  Feyre is really fucking unlikeable though - she's self-absorbed, selfish, arrogant, and completely lacking in any sort of self-awareness.  Rhys, as most of us are aware, is a manipulative asshole.  I actually think Feyre mentions that he's a manipulative prick on multiple occasions, but again, he's hot and rich, and oh-so-powerful, so she'll accept it.  

Feyre should win first place in the Darwin awards - I mean that not in the sense that the Darwin Award books do, but rather that she'll align herself with whoever the most powerful guy in the room is, all because it makes her feel more powerful and more likely to survive.  She obviously gets off on power, and you can practically see her preening every time Rhys (the most powerful high lord in history, don't forget) throws himself at her, or literally kneels before her.  Feyre might like to think she's Ms. Independent, but she already starting to base her own self-worth off of those that are around her; like, this guy is so hot and he's into me, thus I am equally hot.  Not to mention we haven't even really gotten to the parts where Rhys starts kissing her ass with every other breath.  I said it before but I'll say it again.  Feyre 2.0 got an upgraded life, upgraded body, upgraded powers, and suddenly Tamlin (still mired in his own bullshit and depressed and angry as all hell) didn't cut it anymore.

In short, these last few chapters, while really only the beginning of the saga of Rhys and Feyre, have provided scads of evidence that the entire IC is a bunch of hypocritical, selfish assholes whose favorite pastime isn't so much dancing at Rita's as it is projecting their own shortcoming and faults on to others.

Feyre is already wearing her Rhys-colored glasses (ACOMAF re-read - Chapters 15-24)

Poor poor Tamlin.

It really is interesting how you remember things completely differently than you think you do sometimes. I came in to this re-read fully expecting to find gobs of evidence re: how Tamlin really is the crazy ex-boyfriend we're obviously supposed to believe he is, but it's just not there. And technically speaking I'm not even to the really good stuff yet (Feyre's return to the Spring Court and the High Lord meeting).


Instead what I'm finding is a very pointed deconstruction of Tamlin as a decent character and the object of Feyre's affection. Like I can practically picture SJM sitting there with a white board and a pointer indicating one by one every reason why Rhys is the paragon of male perfection all men should aspire to and all women should want. Therefore, I'm making it my goal in life to construct my very own chart, as it were, to show how her own text, and her own words even, are running completely contrary to what she so obviously wants us to believe (Tamlin Bad, Rhys good).


Also, at this point you really start to see that Feyre is really good at coming to realizations about things concerning Tamlin and doing absolutely nothing about it, which makes what she does later on especially shitty.


And obviously I say all of the above knowing full well that this is SJM's creation, and she has the final word on it all, but my dissection of her text has less to do with proving a creator wrong about their own creation and everything to do with saying she did a crap job explaining it all away.


At this point in the story we're still not sure that Feyre is never going back to the Spring Court or how she feels about Tamlin. Knowing what we do know, however, makes a lot of her thoughts and words take on a whole new perspective. I think the biggest thing we learn about Feyre at this point is that she's attracted to power, she might say how she doesn't want to be coddled or protected or that she can do it herself, but it's obvious she gets her rocks off from seeing overly powerful men quite literally kneel before her.


Maybe that's what Tamlin's problem was; he was good and powerful enough for frail, mortal Feyre, but high fae Feyre needs someone even better (so naturally she's go for the most powerful high lord in a century....can't wait til we start hearing that every other fucking sentence). I mean for fuck's sake, Rhys puts her in a fucking crown before going to see her family (in the goddamn house they wouldn't even have if it wasn't for Tamlin, tyvm), and she doesn't even spare a thought for who the hell is she to have this dude putting her in a goddamn crown.


Sidenote: I've found that since Kindle and Audible integration make it so easy, it would be better to post my notes and highlights direct from the book here, so that way it's not just word vomit and musings here - I'm backing up with cold, hard quotes.

Where nothing is what you think it is (ACOMAF Re-read, Chapters 1-15)

 

Ianthe and Tamlin

I wonder how many people started ACOMAF after ACOTAR and were like "wtf is going on?"  Literally nobody behaves the way they did in book 1.  Feyre becomes a meek doormat, Tamlin goes full tin foil hat, and Rhys is suddenly nice.

Speaking of our boy Tam - he's not doing me any favors in this book when it comes to trying to prove he's not really a douche.  A cursory surface read just shows him as a possessive overprotective asshat, but I really don't think it's coming from a mean place.  He's obviously taken his role as protector to a completely inappropriate place.  That's really the main sticking point for me with how the fandom reacts to Tam (and the whole Tamlin the Tool) thing - like he's not doing this to be an asshole.  He's not right, and he doesn't listen to Feyre when she expresses how he's smothering her, but it is coming from a place of love.  

Love can get obsessive.  Love can hurt.  And oftentimes you really can't hurt or be hurt by someone unless you love them (otherwise why would it bother you?).  I think when you get down to it, the way he tries to protect Feyre, the way he obsesses over protecting her (homeboy freaks out and spends hours as a beast just to feel like he can protect her better), is just sad.  It's like Feyre is the only thing that matters in his life so she must be kept safe at all costs.  It's pathetic and sad that he's so lonely that he literally feels like he'll have nothing left if anything happens to her.  I've kind of felt like that at some points in my life - it's like that obsessive feeling you get with a new relationship, when all you can think of is that person - and to be dumped before that can wear off (it always wears off) is like having a limb cut off.